Getting worst.

Sigh. I no mood to post today. No mood to skate some more just now. Cannot even concentrate on Game Of Skate. Lost a lot of times. It's starting to affect my life I used to live the best. Now I realized, how important she is to me in my life. But, there's a question that's not been answered. And I need to know the answer. And that is, are we still together? I've tried asking. Either she keep changing topics or she wouldn't message me back. It gets worse. Sometimes, like today, she wouldn't even reply my message. I don't know why. But I'll not think negatively. And don't ask me whether I'm fine or not. Because it's so obvious that I'm not. I said I'm fine sometimes because I really don't want to talk about it. It'll really turn my day off and I'll end up being sad all over again although I try to cheer myself up after that. And for those who kept cheering me on, I really appreciate your help and I'd like to thank you guys for giving me all the advice. For those who made me, us, fall into these situation, I hope you guys will fall in the same situation and feel how painful it is for both the girl and the guy. I really do. So, for those fuckers out there, try and test me again, and I'll make sure you get what you deserve. Try me.(:

PS: People from Facebook whom I don't know much are adding me up on msn. Fuck them.

We Are The World 25 For Haiti Lyrics.

We Are The World 25 For Haiti Lyrics
[Justin Bieber]
There comes a time
When we heed a certain call
[Nicole Scherzinger & Jennifer Hudson]
When the world must come together as one
[Jennifer Hudson]
There are people dying
[Jennifer Nettles]
And it’s time to lend a hand to life
The greatest gift of all
[Josh Groban]
We can’t go on
Pretending day by day
[Tony Bennet]
that someone, somehow will soon make a change
[Mary J Blige]
We are all a part of
God’s great big family
And the truth, you know love is all we need
[Chorus]
[Michael Jackson]
We are the world
We are the children
[Michael Jackson and Janet Jackson]
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Barbra Streisand]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Miley Cyrus]
Send them your heart
So they’ll know that someone cares
[Enrique Iglesias]
so their cries for help
will not be in vain
[Nicole Scherzinger]
We can’t let them suffer
no we cannot turn away
[Jamie Foxx]
Right now they need a helping hand
[Wyclef Jean]
Nou se mond la
We are the Children
[Adam Levine]
We are the ones who make a brighter day
so lets start giving
[Pink]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
[BeBe Winans]
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Michael Jackson]
When you’re down and out
There seems no hope at all
[Usher]
But if you just believe
There’s no way we can fall
[Celine Dion]
Well, well, well, well, let us realize
That a change can only come
[Fergie]
When we stand together as one
[Chorus - All]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Nick Jonas]
Got to start giving
[All]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
[Toni Braxton]
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Mary Mary]
We are the world
We are the children
[Tony Bennet]
Its for the children
[Isaac Slade]
We are the ones who make a brighter day
[Toni Braxton]
So lets start giving
[Lil Wayne]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Chorus - All]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Akon]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we make a better day
Just you and me
[T-Pain]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Jamie Foxx imitating Ray Charles]
Choice were making
saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Rapping - LL Cool J, Will-I-Am, Snoop Dogg, Busta Rhymes, Swizz Beatz]
We all need somebody that we can lean on
when you wake up look around and see that your dreams gone
when the earth quakes we’ll help you make it through the storm
when the floor breaks a magic carpet to stand on
we are the World united by love so strong
when the radio isn’t on you can hear the songs
a guided light on the dark road your walking on
a sign post to find the dreams you thought was gone
someone to help you move the obstacles you stumbled on
someone to help you rebuild after the rubble’s gone
we are the World connected by a common bond
Love the whole planet sing it along
[Wyclef]
CABARETT
[Chorus - All]
[Kanye West]
Everyday citizens
everybody pitching in
[Singing - Children & Wyclef Jean]
Nou se mond la
nou se timoun yo
[Will-I-Am]
You and I
You and I
[Kanye West]
Uh, 12 days no water
whats your will to live?
[Will-I-Am]
we amplified the love we watching multiply
[Kanye West]
Feeling like the Worlds end
we can make the World win
[Will-I-Am]
Like Katrina, Africa, Indonesia
and now Haiti needs us, the need us, they need us
[Chorus - All]
[Wyclef Jean]
Ayiti, Ayiti, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay
Ayiti, Ayiti, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay
Ayiti, Ayiti, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay
[End]

Questions I was supposed to ask myself.

Who IS the special "someone"?
Am I ever gonna be brave enough to confront her?
What am I supposed to do next?
If we're not meant to be, then what?
What will I feel/experience during the moment we're gonna be on separate ways?
Am I gonna do something about this?
Will I ever do it?
Ever since THAT day, did I notice that I'm slowly changing?
Ever since we were together, did I do something to make it last?
Why the fuck do people disturb our lives when they themselves know, how painful it is for them to be in our situation?
Why the fuck am I a loud mouth, telling everyone about us?
Why did I message her, knowing that there's a high possibility that she wouldn't reply?
Why am I still thinking about you, now that we're just friends?
Why am I hurt right now?
Is there ever gonna be a second try?
Is there ever gonna be a time where we, just the two of us, go out together again, just that we're not going out as a friend, but more than that?
Why am I still waiting for your message?
Will I ever get to hold your hands, even for a brief moment?
Will we ever be one again?














Not even one week passed.
But I enjoyed the time with you, however brief it may be.
I still remember, 09042010, after prayers.
I went to meet you.
Walked together very closely, under the umbrella.
Read books at the library together.
Talk to each other for a period of time.
Walked around at Causeway with you.
Sat at KFC, talking about us.
Went to cold storage, talking about the old times.
Sent you to Republic Polytechnic.
Walked there slowly.
Reached there, but sat around.
Sat closely beside you at the bus stop, talking about things while waiting for your tutor.
Laughed at lame jokes together.
Sent you towards the entrance.
Looked at you in your beautiful eyes for quite a while.
Said those three words twice; the second time louder.
Waited till you're inside, then I left.


The best feeling I've ever had.
Just keeps repeating inside my head.

HEART YOU!

YOU, yeah you, C! Haha. Hope no one knows who you are except for those who knew it already. Sigh. Only 5 days, but it seemed soo long that we're... Yeah. So, nothing much. Just learnt Varial Kickflips, Hardflips and Muska Flip/Illusion Flip. Damn fun to finally get hold of more tricks. Must try get some more tricks and constant them. Must try to go out together sometimes. Jyeah! That's all for today. A short post, is still a post for today.(: