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Lesson Learnt.

I suddenly realized how stupid and dumb I am. I shouldn't have done that even though I really just wanted to express my feelings there. Hmmm. Look. I understand if you really don't want to communicate with me again. I know I was foolish. I really miss the days whereby we'll be chatting and laughing at each other with our jokes. Now, it seems that all of it just... faded away. All the fun times. Just like that. Looking back, I really enjoyed the thought. Now? Misunderstandings occur. Unhappiness is starting. I feel like I'm losing out of you. I feel I'm losing out to everybody. I lost hope of myself. I'm starting to hate myself. I'm beginning to think that I'm nothing to no one. Not even myself. All is lost for me. You may not notice it, but I'll always be moody and sleepy. Day and night, just thinking of you. People say,"Ari, just forget her laa. Move on with the others. You'll regret waiting for her." Well, I don't give a fuck about what you guys think. It's me who's going to lose or win, not you guys. You guys keep saying just move on, but do you guys know how hard it is to stop thinking of you. You guys keep saying that only. You guys, even though you guys are trying to help me, but have you guys ever think? You guys keep telling me this and that, but I never got a chance to express my thoughts. I don't think you guys even consider my thoughts just for one second.(except for my best friends, the 5, including me) I need you guys to stop helping me, unless I asked for it. And for you,











I just.....
Sigh.
I just want you to know that I really miss you and I'm becoming incredibly impatient and really annoying and really stupid and really dumb.
I just want you to know that....
I just want you to know that I love you.





























Yes, you.
The girl.





























Ari Haikal S.
Sorry.




















































P.S. I landed double kickflip. Tried a triple kickflip, but couldn't land, although it flipped three times.

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Hahahahahahahaha. Nothing better to do laa. Boring you know. Only talk to her only. Hahaha. Jokejokejoke. Then act merajok. Hahahaha. Then jokejokejoke again. Hehehe. Wah. Seriously dunno what to write sia. Uhh, never mind la. Just post this only. Tomorrow make new post. Hehehe. Buhbye!








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Di malam syahdu :)

$20.

I need it for Saturday! Shit uh. Need to buy new deck. Hahahaha. Going skating this Saturday also. Go buy deck first, then skate. Yeah! Join me if anyone interested, eh? ^^ And need to constant double heelflip and NEED to land 360 inward heelflip! Shit! Hahaha. And one more thing. Need to really try to talk to her. Plan long time already but never talk to her. Seems easy, but it ain't as easy as that. Need to control the feelings inside somemore. That's what I think. Dunno about you guys lah eh. Hahahahaha. And I seriously need a new pair of SKATE SHOES. Seriously, all my shoes are fucked up, like yeah. Hahahaha. Can give me early presents? Hehehehe. Ok lah. Going chatting with friends and HER first. Next time then blog. Okay? Buhbye.

Hey...

NURUL AIN HASANAH!
Hahahaha. Nothing to write... Planned to write our names bigbig. Hahaha. So, just follow uh. Today quite funny, actually. We had sexuality education today. It was funny for me cos I can't stop laughing. Then, there was A+E Maths. I slept A LOT of times on both of Mr Cheok's class. Hahaha. Funny thing is, he didn't catch me. Only a couple of times. Hahahaha. Now need another 6 Bucks then want to buy deck. YES! Can't wait!(Although it's a 2nd-hand deck.) And finally, I NEED TO LAND TRE FLIP! Got one part I accidentally made a 540 flip. WTF? Hahahaha. Guess I need to control the deck more.... Sigh... Okay. That's all for today! Buhbye!

Sigh Number 2.

What should I do now? Kept thinking about her. Accidentally read her blog. Felt wrong. Now, I worry for her more. All soo sudden. Can't stop thinking. Never will. But the question remains: Should I EVER go on without her or should I just wait? My patience is wearing thin, but I need to cling on to it. Because I miss her so dearly much. Never had I this kind of feeling towards anybody. Oh please, stop talking about you leaving soon, please. It's making me think of you more. Please. I don't need you to love me. I just don't want you to get hurt. Promise me. Promise.

Nice.

I almost landed a Double Heelflip and a 360 Inward Heelflip last Saturday and Sunday. Hahaha. I did land the 360 Inward Heelflip, but I lean too far back, so I fell on my back. FUCKING PAINFUL. But I get the feeling already. Hahaha. Today tried Double Heelflip, but I fell on my butt before the deck turned halfway to the top. Sigh. Need to practice more. Hahaha. Planning on how to talk to Her with Hafiz just now. Hahaha. Like small boy trying to get a girl sia. Hahaha. But, I damn shy uh when I saw her or things like that. Dunno why uh. Just comes to me every time I see her. Like boy see new toy then dunno what to say. Hahaha! But the funny thing is, she didn't know that I was talking about her when she talked about it. She even asked me to go and talk to her. Hahaha! She is encouraging me to talk to her! Got signal already! Hahaha. Now I just need to control my eager and try to be normal. For that ONE moment. Any suggestions on how to talk to girls without choking? In serious need for suggestion. Hahaha. Anything just drop a message at msn or Facebook or just message me at my phone, okay?:D Buhbye!

Sigh.

I really don't feel like I wanna blog today. But it's soo long. So, decided to blog anyway. Million and one things in my mind. But I can't catch all of them. Don't know why. One thing is certain though. Heartbroken. Sick. Light-headed. Dumb piece of shit. You name it, I feel it. I really don't know why. I guess I shouldn't have started liking her. BUT WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT? I'M A GROWING MAN, FOR GOODNESS SAKE. But, what to do. I'm just another looser who just wants to be loved. Well, didn't get it. Typing this almost made me cry. Such a sensitive guy I am. Well, there's nothing that I could do except to pray that I don't get attracted to my desires or worse, her. Argh! I can't get her off my mind! FUCK! Cannot bear. I gtg. Big headache.

Sorry.

Hey. Sorry didn't post blog for a long time. I had a really hard struggle about something. Don't ask. BTW, just wanted to say that, What The Hell Should I Do Now? Want to talk to her, but I'm scared cos I think I hurt her feelings yesterday. Shit. Shouldn't talk to her about this in the first place. But, what to do. Things happen. Just have to move along. Sigh..... Well, most probably she wouldn't be talking to me anymore. Worst case scenario. And I started it. You know, sometimes I really find myself to be a stupid, idiotic moron. But, who cares? No one does. So, why bother. I think I'm not posting a new entry for a loooooong time, but don't worry. I'll try to post as soon as possible. Well, I'm all sad now. Nothing else to do. So, goodbye.

Oh Shit.

Wow. Five days since I last updated this blog. DANG! Luckily, Shahira told me that she was blogging. Sigh. So forgetful. Anyways, followed Ting Quan to buy his brand-new skateboard yesterday. Wished that it was mine. Damn nice uh. Oh well. Then went skating till 9. Got called from home. So, rush uh. Haha. Then, just now went to cuzzins house for dunno what. But it's fun! Haha. Ate my cuzzin's baked lasagna, baked rice and stuff. Was damn full. Haha. Played my cuzzin's electric guitar with my brother. Blahblahblah. Went home. Blahblahblah. On the computer. Do this. Then, Buhbye! Hahaha.

On The Deck.

Went skating today. DAMN pissed. I nearly landed an Inward Heelflip. But didn't make it, as usual. sigh... Need to practice more uh. Anybody wanna join? Just text me. Then went eating at Burger King. Lost my EZ-Link card. But Yat found it. Damn lucky. Took 190 to CCK. Then take 985 back home. Skate back all the way from the bus stop to my house. Watched Mythbusters. Then go bathe. Switched on the comp. Chat with friends. Blahblahblah. Now I want to sleep. hahahaha.... Buhbye!

Out in the Sun.

HEY! Just went to Sentosa today with my cousins and uncle. Went to "cuci mata" with my cousin at Siloso Beach.(YEAH!) Then went for a dip in the sea. Went 'cuci mata' again... hehehe...(There got A LOT of hot chicks. Trust me. It's Heaven.) Then change clothes, went to Sakura.(WOOHOO!) Ate A LOT of food. Felt bloated. Then went home and then I do this.. hahaha.... Now I'm just chatting on msn with friends. Kinda bored. hahaha... Ok. Until here do I have for you guys. Buh-bye!

Once A While.

Yeah! Watched movie with my sis, my bro and my three cousins. AVATAR ROCKS! hahahaha.... DAMN nice uh the movie... Go watch in 3D.... Wasted as I didn't watch it on 3D... sigh.... hahahahaha...... but, what to do.... hahaha... anw, this morning I'm going Malaysia, so I'll not be updating the blog till Monday, if I'm not wrong... So, yeah.. And most probably they'll make a bigger fire for me to jump over.... hahahahaha... OK. See you guys next monday!

Goodnight!

hey... new video thaks to my cuzzin... hahahaha.. hope you guys enjoy!

One More Thing.

Noone will be too good for the one girl.:)

And I can guarantee her that.;)

But of course, she will think otherwise. So, all I wanted to say is, noone is ever too good for anybody. It's just the way they think of it that make them say so. And what I think they are trying to do is to make the someone feel proud, because they are too good for the other someone, but in the end, it just made the person feel more miserable than before.

We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.

Oh MAN!

Shit! Forgot to update! Sorry people...
Okay, yesterday and the day before yesterday I was out till late and I slept over at my cousin's because I have rehearsals near my his house... So, no computer.. But, I have news for you guys! This Saturday, would you come and watch me perform for Christmas? It's free btw... So, yeah.. And it's at Jurong West St 74, if I'm not wrong.. Just contact me if you need more details. So, went skating and went to Crystal Koh's b'day... Quite fun actually today... Get to meet new skaters and partying.... But still, need to go home by 11... BOOHOO..... hahaha... So, now I'm just typing out what I've been doing.... So, damn boring uh... Haha.. But, I quite tired uh today, so, Buhbye! Going to sleep after typing this...:) Good morning everybody!

Oh Ya....

And don't forget to comment or do anything here, okay?

Cheers!

Opening of my new blog.

Ok. This is my first blog ok. And I'm doing this as I couldn't sleep, for certain reasons. So, yeah. And I don't have anything to say now as my mind is blank. So, I guess I'll end here.

Regards,

Ari Haikal S