You ARE Right.

Okay? You are. But, I just hate it when you're pissing me of. You and your jokes. I can't take it. People have limits. You just over-crossed it, man. I may have over-crossed it, but you were the one who did it first to me. You think I like being called that? Fuck sia. I didn't disturb you, but you disturb me. I know uh you fucking pro. Beat me in Game Of Skate under 1 minute lah. "Small tricks" lah. But, fuck man, I can tell you that you're not the best. No one is. Fucked up. And I know that you're trying to give me advice. But with the way you tell me the advice, man, I just can't take it. So, you're trying to tell me to stop running after her? Fine. I will. Some, are just... Too big for me to know now.





You win, bro. Hope you're happy.

FUCK YOU ARI. YOU FUCKING CUNT. I HOPE YOU FUCKING DIE.

Oh man. I'm so fucking pissed with myself. I mean, WTF? WHY THE FUCK, DID I SAY LIKE THAT? I hope I'm dreaming. A BAD ONE. FUCK MAN. I'm like, crying over this conversation with her. Oh man. Why are you so stupid, Ari? No wonder your siblings always call you stupid. Because you never seem to think before doing anything. You stupid fucker. I wonder NOBODY likes you. You're a stupid, idiotic, moronic fucker that I have ever known in my entire life. I mean, you don't even think about what you want to say to her. You let her down, you fucking cunt. And now you're miserable. And it's your own fault. You stupid piece of shit.

Getting worst.

Sigh. I no mood to post today. No mood to skate some more just now. Cannot even concentrate on Game Of Skate. Lost a lot of times. It's starting to affect my life I used to live the best. Now I realized, how important she is to me in my life. But, there's a question that's not been answered. And I need to know the answer. And that is, are we still together? I've tried asking. Either she keep changing topics or she wouldn't message me back. It gets worse. Sometimes, like today, she wouldn't even reply my message. I don't know why. But I'll not think negatively. And don't ask me whether I'm fine or not. Because it's so obvious that I'm not. I said I'm fine sometimes because I really don't want to talk about it. It'll really turn my day off and I'll end up being sad all over again although I try to cheer myself up after that. And for those who kept cheering me on, I really appreciate your help and I'd like to thank you guys for giving me all the advice. For those who made me, us, fall into these situation, I hope you guys will fall in the same situation and feel how painful it is for both the girl and the guy. I really do. So, for those fuckers out there, try and test me again, and I'll make sure you get what you deserve. Try me.(:

PS: People from Facebook whom I don't know much are adding me up on msn. Fuck them.

We Are The World 25 For Haiti Lyrics.

We Are The World 25 For Haiti Lyrics
[Justin Bieber]
There comes a time
When we heed a certain call
[Nicole Scherzinger & Jennifer Hudson]
When the world must come together as one
[Jennifer Hudson]
There are people dying
[Jennifer Nettles]
And it’s time to lend a hand to life
The greatest gift of all
[Josh Groban]
We can’t go on
Pretending day by day
[Tony Bennet]
that someone, somehow will soon make a change
[Mary J Blige]
We are all a part of
God’s great big family
And the truth, you know love is all we need
[Chorus]
[Michael Jackson]
We are the world
We are the children
[Michael Jackson and Janet Jackson]
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Barbra Streisand]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Miley Cyrus]
Send them your heart
So they’ll know that someone cares
[Enrique Iglesias]
so their cries for help
will not be in vain
[Nicole Scherzinger]
We can’t let them suffer
no we cannot turn away
[Jamie Foxx]
Right now they need a helping hand
[Wyclef Jean]
Nou se mond la
We are the Children
[Adam Levine]
We are the ones who make a brighter day
so lets start giving
[Pink]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
[BeBe Winans]
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Michael Jackson]
When you’re down and out
There seems no hope at all
[Usher]
But if you just believe
There’s no way we can fall
[Celine Dion]
Well, well, well, well, let us realize
That a change can only come
[Fergie]
When we stand together as one
[Chorus - All]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Nick Jonas]
Got to start giving
[All]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
[Toni Braxton]
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Mary Mary]
We are the world
We are the children
[Tony Bennet]
Its for the children
[Isaac Slade]
We are the ones who make a brighter day
[Toni Braxton]
So lets start giving
[Lil Wayne]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Chorus - All]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Akon]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we make a better day
Just you and me
[T-Pain]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Jamie Foxx imitating Ray Charles]
Choice were making
saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Rapping - LL Cool J, Will-I-Am, Snoop Dogg, Busta Rhymes, Swizz Beatz]
We all need somebody that we can lean on
when you wake up look around and see that your dreams gone
when the earth quakes we’ll help you make it through the storm
when the floor breaks a magic carpet to stand on
we are the World united by love so strong
when the radio isn’t on you can hear the songs
a guided light on the dark road your walking on
a sign post to find the dreams you thought was gone
someone to help you move the obstacles you stumbled on
someone to help you rebuild after the rubble’s gone
we are the World connected by a common bond
Love the whole planet sing it along
[Wyclef]
CABARETT
[Chorus - All]
[Kanye West]
Everyday citizens
everybody pitching in
[Singing - Children & Wyclef Jean]
Nou se mond la
nou se timoun yo
[Will-I-Am]
You and I
You and I
[Kanye West]
Uh, 12 days no water
whats your will to live?
[Will-I-Am]
we amplified the love we watching multiply
[Kanye West]
Feeling like the Worlds end
we can make the World win
[Will-I-Am]
Like Katrina, Africa, Indonesia
and now Haiti needs us, the need us, they need us
[Chorus - All]
[Wyclef Jean]
Ayiti, Ayiti, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay
Ayiti, Ayiti, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay
Ayiti, Ayiti, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay
[End]

Questions I was supposed to ask myself.

Who IS the special "someone"?
Am I ever gonna be brave enough to confront her?
What am I supposed to do next?
If we're not meant to be, then what?
What will I feel/experience during the moment we're gonna be on separate ways?
Am I gonna do something about this?
Will I ever do it?
Ever since THAT day, did I notice that I'm slowly changing?
Ever since we were together, did I do something to make it last?
Why the fuck do people disturb our lives when they themselves know, how painful it is for them to be in our situation?
Why the fuck am I a loud mouth, telling everyone about us?
Why did I message her, knowing that there's a high possibility that she wouldn't reply?
Why am I still thinking about you, now that we're just friends?
Why am I hurt right now?
Is there ever gonna be a second try?
Is there ever gonna be a time where we, just the two of us, go out together again, just that we're not going out as a friend, but more than that?
Why am I still waiting for your message?
Will I ever get to hold your hands, even for a brief moment?
Will we ever be one again?














Not even one week passed.
But I enjoyed the time with you, however brief it may be.
I still remember, 09042010, after prayers.
I went to meet you.
Walked together very closely, under the umbrella.
Read books at the library together.
Talk to each other for a period of time.
Walked around at Causeway with you.
Sat at KFC, talking about us.
Went to cold storage, talking about the old times.
Sent you to Republic Polytechnic.
Walked there slowly.
Reached there, but sat around.
Sat closely beside you at the bus stop, talking about things while waiting for your tutor.
Laughed at lame jokes together.
Sent you towards the entrance.
Looked at you in your beautiful eyes for quite a while.
Said those three words twice; the second time louder.
Waited till you're inside, then I left.


The best feeling I've ever had.
Just keeps repeating inside my head.

HEART YOU!

YOU, yeah you, C! Haha. Hope no one knows who you are except for those who knew it already. Sigh. Only 5 days, but it seemed soo long that we're... Yeah. So, nothing much. Just learnt Varial Kickflips, Hardflips and Muska Flip/Illusion Flip. Damn fun to finally get hold of more tricks. Must try get some more tricks and constant them. Must try to go out together sometimes. Jyeah! That's all for today. A short post, is still a post for today.(:

BLOG'S DEAD. POST AFTER A WHILE.

Lesson Learnt.

I suddenly realized how stupid and dumb I am. I shouldn't have done that even though I really just wanted to express my feelings there. Hmmm. Look. I understand if you really don't want to communicate with me again. I know I was foolish. I really miss the days whereby we'll be chatting and laughing at each other with our jokes. Now, it seems that all of it just... faded away. All the fun times. Just like that. Looking back, I really enjoyed the thought. Now? Misunderstandings occur. Unhappiness is starting. I feel like I'm losing out of you. I feel I'm losing out to everybody. I lost hope of myself. I'm starting to hate myself. I'm beginning to think that I'm nothing to no one. Not even myself. All is lost for me. You may not notice it, but I'll always be moody and sleepy. Day and night, just thinking of you. People say,"Ari, just forget her laa. Move on with the others. You'll regret waiting for her." Well, I don't give a fuck about what you guys think. It's me who's going to lose or win, not you guys. You guys keep saying just move on, but do you guys know how hard it is to stop thinking of you. You guys keep saying that only. You guys, even though you guys are trying to help me, but have you guys ever think? You guys keep telling me this and that, but I never got a chance to express my thoughts. I don't think you guys even consider my thoughts just for one second.(except for my best friends, the 5, including me) I need you guys to stop helping me, unless I asked for it. And for you,











I just.....
Sigh.
I just want you to know that I really miss you and I'm becoming incredibly impatient and really annoying and really stupid and really dumb.
I just want you to know that....
I just want you to know that I love you.





























Yes, you.
The girl.





























Ari Haikal S.
Sorry.




















































P.S. I landed double kickflip. Tried a triple kickflip, but couldn't land, although it flipped three times.

NURUL 'AIN HASANAH.

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Hahahahahahahaha. Nothing better to do laa. Boring you know. Only talk to her only. Hahaha. Jokejokejoke. Then act merajok. Hahahaha. Then jokejokejoke again. Hehehe. Wah. Seriously dunno what to write sia. Uhh, never mind la. Just post this only. Tomorrow make new post. Hehehe. Buhbye!








Gerhana Ska Cinta-Hadirnya Cinta.:)

Kau permata Kaulah intan
Di sanubariku Kau pujaanku
Kau idamanku
Sinar Rembulan menerangi jiwa
Oh asmaraku Kau yang ku rindu
Hangatnya cintamu

Oh Tiada yang lain Kaulah satunya
Antara beribu
Cintamu sehangat sinar mentari
Membakar jiwaku
Hadirnya cintamu membawa bagia
Dalam hidupku
Bagaikan bulan dipagari bintang
Di malam syahdu :)

$20.

I need it for Saturday! Shit uh. Need to buy new deck. Hahahaha. Going skating this Saturday also. Go buy deck first, then skate. Yeah! Join me if anyone interested, eh? ^^ And need to constant double heelflip and NEED to land 360 inward heelflip! Shit! Hahaha. And one more thing. Need to really try to talk to her. Plan long time already but never talk to her. Seems easy, but it ain't as easy as that. Need to control the feelings inside somemore. That's what I think. Dunno about you guys lah eh. Hahahahaha. And I seriously need a new pair of SKATE SHOES. Seriously, all my shoes are fucked up, like yeah. Hahahaha. Can give me early presents? Hehehehe. Ok lah. Going chatting with friends and HER first. Next time then blog. Okay? Buhbye.

Hey...

NURUL AIN HASANAH!
Hahahaha. Nothing to write... Planned to write our names bigbig. Hahaha. So, just follow uh. Today quite funny, actually. We had sexuality education today. It was funny for me cos I can't stop laughing. Then, there was A+E Maths. I slept A LOT of times on both of Mr Cheok's class. Hahaha. Funny thing is, he didn't catch me. Only a couple of times. Hahahaha. Now need another 6 Bucks then want to buy deck. YES! Can't wait!(Although it's a 2nd-hand deck.) And finally, I NEED TO LAND TRE FLIP! Got one part I accidentally made a 540 flip. WTF? Hahahaha. Guess I need to control the deck more.... Sigh... Okay. That's all for today! Buhbye!

Sigh Number 2.

What should I do now? Kept thinking about her. Accidentally read her blog. Felt wrong. Now, I worry for her more. All soo sudden. Can't stop thinking. Never will. But the question remains: Should I EVER go on without her or should I just wait? My patience is wearing thin, but I need to cling on to it. Because I miss her so dearly much. Never had I this kind of feeling towards anybody. Oh please, stop talking about you leaving soon, please. It's making me think of you more. Please. I don't need you to love me. I just don't want you to get hurt. Promise me. Promise.

Nice.

I almost landed a Double Heelflip and a 360 Inward Heelflip last Saturday and Sunday. Hahaha. I did land the 360 Inward Heelflip, but I lean too far back, so I fell on my back. FUCKING PAINFUL. But I get the feeling already. Hahaha. Today tried Double Heelflip, but I fell on my butt before the deck turned halfway to the top. Sigh. Need to practice more. Hahaha. Planning on how to talk to Her with Hafiz just now. Hahaha. Like small boy trying to get a girl sia. Hahaha. But, I damn shy uh when I saw her or things like that. Dunno why uh. Just comes to me every time I see her. Like boy see new toy then dunno what to say. Hahaha! But the funny thing is, she didn't know that I was talking about her when she talked about it. She even asked me to go and talk to her. Hahaha! She is encouraging me to talk to her! Got signal already! Hahaha. Now I just need to control my eager and try to be normal. For that ONE moment. Any suggestions on how to talk to girls without choking? In serious need for suggestion. Hahaha. Anything just drop a message at msn or Facebook or just message me at my phone, okay?:D Buhbye!

Sigh.

I really don't feel like I wanna blog today. But it's soo long. So, decided to blog anyway. Million and one things in my mind. But I can't catch all of them. Don't know why. One thing is certain though. Heartbroken. Sick. Light-headed. Dumb piece of shit. You name it, I feel it. I really don't know why. I guess I shouldn't have started liking her. BUT WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT? I'M A GROWING MAN, FOR GOODNESS SAKE. But, what to do. I'm just another looser who just wants to be loved. Well, didn't get it. Typing this almost made me cry. Such a sensitive guy I am. Well, there's nothing that I could do except to pray that I don't get attracted to my desires or worse, her. Argh! I can't get her off my mind! FUCK! Cannot bear. I gtg. Big headache.

Sorry.

Hey. Sorry didn't post blog for a long time. I had a really hard struggle about something. Don't ask. BTW, just wanted to say that, What The Hell Should I Do Now? Want to talk to her, but I'm scared cos I think I hurt her feelings yesterday. Shit. Shouldn't talk to her about this in the first place. But, what to do. Things happen. Just have to move along. Sigh..... Well, most probably she wouldn't be talking to me anymore. Worst case scenario. And I started it. You know, sometimes I really find myself to be a stupid, idiotic moron. But, who cares? No one does. So, why bother. I think I'm not posting a new entry for a loooooong time, but don't worry. I'll try to post as soon as possible. Well, I'm all sad now. Nothing else to do. So, goodbye.

Oh Shit.

Wow. Five days since I last updated this blog. DANG! Luckily, Shahira told me that she was blogging. Sigh. So forgetful. Anyways, followed Ting Quan to buy his brand-new skateboard yesterday. Wished that it was mine. Damn nice uh. Oh well. Then went skating till 9. Got called from home. So, rush uh. Haha. Then, just now went to cuzzins house for dunno what. But it's fun! Haha. Ate my cuzzin's baked lasagna, baked rice and stuff. Was damn full. Haha. Played my cuzzin's electric guitar with my brother. Blahblahblah. Went home. Blahblahblah. On the computer. Do this. Then, Buhbye! Hahaha.

On The Deck.

Went skating today. DAMN pissed. I nearly landed an Inward Heelflip. But didn't make it, as usual. sigh... Need to practice more uh. Anybody wanna join? Just text me. Then went eating at Burger King. Lost my EZ-Link card. But Yat found it. Damn lucky. Took 190 to CCK. Then take 985 back home. Skate back all the way from the bus stop to my house. Watched Mythbusters. Then go bathe. Switched on the comp. Chat with friends. Blahblahblah. Now I want to sleep. hahahaha.... Buhbye!

Out in the Sun.

HEY! Just went to Sentosa today with my cousins and uncle. Went to "cuci mata" with my cousin at Siloso Beach.(YEAH!) Then went for a dip in the sea. Went 'cuci mata' again... hehehe...(There got A LOT of hot chicks. Trust me. It's Heaven.) Then change clothes, went to Sakura.(WOOHOO!) Ate A LOT of food. Felt bloated. Then went home and then I do this.. hahaha.... Now I'm just chatting on msn with friends. Kinda bored. hahaha... Ok. Until here do I have for you guys. Buh-bye!

Once A While.

Yeah! Watched movie with my sis, my bro and my three cousins. AVATAR ROCKS! hahahaha.... DAMN nice uh the movie... Go watch in 3D.... Wasted as I didn't watch it on 3D... sigh.... hahahahaha...... but, what to do.... hahaha... anw, this morning I'm going Malaysia, so I'll not be updating the blog till Monday, if I'm not wrong... So, yeah.. And most probably they'll make a bigger fire for me to jump over.... hahahahaha... OK. See you guys next monday!

Goodnight!

hey... new video thaks to my cuzzin... hahahaha.. hope you guys enjoy!